if i look into the eyes of this angel
will she know my name?
or will she turn away
because she knows my shame
and wonder why i even came?
If i touch the hand of this angel
will she feel my pain?
or will she turn away
because she can see the stain
on my heart and know just who's to blame?
if i kiss the lips of this angel
will she erase my hate
or will she turn away
and leave me to burn
inside my childish rage?
and if i ever see this angel
will she still be from heaven
or will she have turned away
and become what i made
the demon that i so crave
her smile
and her hands
and her joy
and her laughter
and her tears
and her grace
all left shattered
and her love
and her wings
and her halo
all gone
and if i leave this angel
will i leave a man?
or will she burn me where i stand
because she knows i am truly ******
and i need a to finally understand
that all i was and all i am
is doomed to never know the plan
in the mind of the great one, the I Am
just to wander on inside this sham?
this sham that is my exsistence; that is my life
that is the reason for so much strife
that cuts the innocent like a knife
that gives to others anger rife
and if i die in this angels arms
will she send me to my eternal death
or will she turn me away
from hells tormentous touch?
of this i truly pray
yet something tells me that all she is
is my souls desperate wish to stay away
from the judgement that will come one day
and she'll have nothing left for her to say
except you have gone too far astray
and now all of your yesterday
will make your tomorrow never after today