The words don't come easily,
No; I don't tell you enough,
Pull yourself from feeling
haunted feelings I can't return,
Push me further than intended
and lose grip on reality.

You see me in front of you?
You see be behind you,
No longer beside you.

Feelings creep into my conscience,
Was I really that bad?
Friendship's sharper than I thought,
Didn't I notice the pain I caused?
Only realised when I was burnt,
Sleepless nights full of nightmares.

Dreamless tears,
Endless fears,
Push of knives,
Rush of blood,
Think this is
penance enough?

Closer than flesh and blood,
Only tears can convey,
Holding tightly to the fear,
Let go! It's my life,
Don't remind me so many times,
How many times you felt the same,
Next time I'll tell you more often

Tell you, dear brother,
Overprotective,
Understanding,
Jealous,
Wonderous,
Alone­,
My own,
I do love you