maybe the reason my hands shook so much when you kissed me was because i was opening myself up to you. i was allowing you to explore the depths of my mind and all my insecurities were there for you to discover. i don't want you to view me as i view myself sometimes, i don't want your hands on my waist to turn into a guessing game. but oh god, when you kiss me it's like i can't even breathe anymore. i don't want this to end, but i'm scared that when you find your way to my heart, i'm not going to be who you want anymore.

d.l.b.