Sometimes it's easier
To not breathe at all
To stay completely still
And I don't notice I'm doing this
Until suddenly I am gasping for air

Sometimes it's easier
To never wake up
To live in my dream world
And leave reality behind
Until I don't know where I am

Sometimes it's easier
To not eat at all
To starve myself
And forget how much I need it
Until I collapse with weakness

Sometimes it's easier
To block the pain
To store it up
And never let it surface
Until one day I explode

Sometimes it's easier
To pretend I'm not alive
To believe I don't exist
And hide away from the world
Until I can't feel anything at all