It takes sunlight
8 minutes to reach
the earth
every morning at sunrise.
In that time I will have woken up
and realized I was alone.
Remembered the way you
looked at me when I left
you yesterday.
Smiled at the thought of
you telling me you loved
me.
Wondered how you always
smell like God himself.
Tensed at the revelation
that you will never love
me as much as I love you.
Panicked at the thought
of losing you.
Eased reading your texts
from last night.
Regained hope that maybe
you'd see something
different in me.
Settled for the fact that
we are only friends.
Thanked God I have you
in my life.
Debated calling you
and telling you I love you.
Decided to go back to sleep.

My morning routine.