Why can't I be somebody with potential?
With the sheer willpower to get through anything.
To do anything without fear and refusal.
Why can't I be someone else?
Cause I hate the feeling I get of never being good enough.
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
It's like an never ending torture.
Like being stabbed over and over.
It's the feeling of wanting to be thin, wanting to be pretty, wanting to be smart, wanting to desperately be someone you're not.
It's the feeling of wanting to die. cause nothing will ever surmount the hatred I have towards myself. Nothing could ever change how I feel about ME.
And do you know what that is exactly?
A girl who doesn't have a life. WHO doesn't want to try anymore.
                                       A girl who wants to die.