i can’t remember the sound of her voice
i can’t remember the way she kissed my head
i can’t remember the feeling of her hands on my shoulders
i can’t remember her dancing
i can’t remember her singing
i can’t remember her driving me to school
i can’t remember her being my mother
i can’t remember who she really was

i remember her wheelchair
i remember her computer voice
i remember her feeding tube
i remember the end
the suffering
the tears

i remember a broken body
i don’t remember my mother

        *k.d.