The nerves.

Oh my, the nerves.

On call every fraction of a second.

Being fiercely independent and overthinking

combine in a toxic way during a transition.

You are the best and worst person for yourself.

They trade places in an instant.

What is a total release one moment

becomes the largest source of stress without warning.

You constantly have to remind yourself that this IS what you wanted.

This is what I wanted.

This is what I needed.

You can plan the hell out of them

but never will they go as you imagined.

But that's life, yes?

Something will always happen

whether or not you foresaw it.