all i want to know is where you are, still so close, but yet so far.
you and i have seen pretty lights, and now they have turned to fading colors. i remember when we would lay for hours under the covers.
and your eyes are my favorite sight, your smile would make my night. i love you till the end of life. but i am just a fool... walking talking tool, to be used for nothing, and not kept for long.  my heart is broken, shattered, all the little pieces dont seem to matter.
and my tears are empty still, i remember when they had so much life, i remember when i had my soul in sight. it only ran away because its to scared to face whats coming, and to hear you say 'never meant to be,' would be all to numbing. im not sure how, because i can barely even feel. non of this seems real.
you showed me love, you showed me pain.. you showed me how to live with shame.
and all these days, and all these weeks, and all these months... have been through so much.. and you still take me by surprise still some hope left in your eyes, but please baby dont cry..
now body looking thin, no light can shine in, no sound can be made.
with no warning, not time to think.. this new reality still wont sink..