Wanna say my score cards full of gold stars but inside I'm still just healing scars My brain is leaking this terrible oozy sadness I used to believe this was just all ******* madness Now I know its me Just not the me you see Magic pastry chef run the bakery! What's that ETA for desserts on table 3? I smile and spin But deep within My minds on fire I wanna be higher or imma scream or maybe cry part of me wants to die