when your laughs turn into sobs

they go back and forth really

you can see the line

are you overjoyed or hysterical?

it's a vicious cycle

to realize your emotions.

as I laugh into sadness i remember all I've done

I let you down

when all you did was raise me up

I promised you things that I have had to go back on

Your trust in  me may never be the same

but believe me when I say that you will always be in my fame

hold yourself dear

as i do now

it may not seem like it

but please don't fight it.

We will each move on

cause that's how how things work

but you will always remain

my closest domain.

I consider that I may have just ruined

the best thing to have entered my life

But when the time isn't right

it really ***** things up.

And I wish so much that I had met you twenty years from now

because my heart would want the the things you do.

But right now

it's not the same

it'll work itself out

the way it's supposed to

you'll find yourself a girl who deserves and appreciates every second of you.

I'm sorry that I couldn't do that.

You have no idea how much I wish I could

You mean so much to me.

I love you.

It's that simple and that complicated.

Be happy

Forgive

Don't forget

We had amazing moments together.

Please never forget me.

Because I will never forget you.

I will cherish those moments forever.

I know that you will need to grieve

But

Please don't think badly of me

I needed to do this

and I hope that one day I'll be be able to explain

I hope that one day we can be as close as we used to

I will will always regret not telling you how important you are to me

You are millions of times more amazing than you think you are

You'll find her

I truly believe that

your one girl who can give you everything that you desire.

I'm sorry I couldn't be her for you

but I promise to be supportive of you always

in anything

no matter what

we'll probably always agree to disagree

but that's what makes us you and me

I promise that when I reach the point

If I ever meet Miss Kesha Rose

I will make sure

you have your tea, just tea, with her.