it's bittersweet
like licking the adhesive on an envelope
the after taste lingers on your tongue

and what the hell am i supposed to do?
i'm trying
but all i want to do is sleep
and i feel like my heartbeat is slowing down
and my eyes don't light up when i see certain things
i don't feel like myself anymore
i feel alone
and i don't want to talk
but,
those grains of sugar make it somewhat worth it
but the bitterness is still present

so the bittersweet taste still lingers on my tongue as the mailman takes my letter and mails it to the person i miss more than anything.