Like I was before I am now.
Reluctant to change I thought I was,
But succeeded to change myself somehow.
Thought you would prefer me that way,
Thought I'd seen hope's ray.
But I was wrong then as I am now.
A ray of hope I hadn't seen,
A mere illusion it had been.
No different than a mirage you were to me,
My minds visualization of a heavenly entity.
Thought I had found joy in a desert of sadness,
Like water in a barren wilderness.
Whoever knew the loneliness I had to go through without you?
Didn't care about it that much,
Who would! after gaining an angel like you as such!
But you never took me seriously,
A joke I was for you clearly.
No matter what I said or did,
You took my words no more than that of a kid.
Hoped for you to be more than a mirage for me,
Hoped that from this loneliness I would alas be free.
But as it had to be,
After chasing you for an eternity,
You disappeared into clarity.
After all the sweet pain you put me through,
You just spread your wings and flew.
Leaving me in this wretched state,
Like a mirage in a desert great great...