in my mind
in my brain

my foot steps creep so slow
with uneasy thoughts of pain

i have to let it go
or hold it down

a stinging pistol in a silent night
leave me with only a frown

looking into darkness
finding only my pain

of what was
and what is it be

plays mind tricks
of a battle within me

these scenes i hate
distortion links my minds

i have let it go
or live it down

a crumbling stake
burns me down

so i find myself inside
in a hell of only one place

red, black and blue
is all i see

i will rack my brain
or go insane

with frustration
or a lack of self control

these creeping walls
in my years of blindness

i cover myself in dirt
only to hide from myself

can somebody check my brain