We are laughing while passing a bottle back and forth between the two of us Our breath reeks of nicotine vapor and the remnants of marijuana mixed with whisky I down half a bottle of Maker’s Mark and you ask how it is I am able to do so with such ease I tell you it isn’t difficult and it isn’t I want to add that swallowing bitterness is much more pleasant on one's own terms but I do not say this part aloud Instead I act like my insensitivity to alcohol is a skill not relevant to a family history of addiction Built from uncles and fathers using liquid as a method to cauterize open flesh A mechanism of numbing that has been passed down for years as casually as a recipe We keep our secrets tacked onto hard labels and the inner caps of beer bottles We antique our inheritance with the reminder that it has always been this way This ability to drown myself under the weight of high content is nothing more than expectation I make wine to water the moment it reaches my tongue I convert drunken slurs to a language understood I know sour breath more than I do mild I didn’t learn drinking from beer pong and taking shots I didn’t learn how to from games at parties and competition I didn’t learn it as an activity or an outlet, I learned it as a habit turned routine I was introduced to liquor with the same hand that walked me to school everyday With the same lips that kissed me goodnight This comprehension for the intoxicated soul is as engrained as my predisposition to become one The only thing impressive about this relationship with alcohol will be how I choose to survive it, Not all of us have.