all this ****
from my past
started coming
up

so I thought
**** it
I’ll just get it over
with

so I got my dad’s gun
and thought,
ok,
if I haven’t done it in a week
then I guess I’ll just put it back
and go on with things

short of it is,
two days later my dad
noticed that his .45 caliber
hand-gun  was missing
and instead of ya’know,
talking to me,
ya’know,
like a normal person,
he called the
cop

I got escorted off campus
by officer Williams
I thought everybody saw me
but I guess not

I spent a week in a mental hospital
that was a load of bull-crap
they said I had to be there three days
then the lady wasn’t there till Monday
then Tuesday
then they said I would be home Wednesday
and now I’m obviously talking to you
and I’ve only been home like two hours
and it’s Wednesday evening
load of bull-crap

so anyways,
I’m on these new pills
supposed to help with depression
and anxiety and stuff

I even missed Bin Laden being killed
that ******

there’s a ban on newspapers
and books in there
but I got special permission
and got a paper

hehe,
so yeah,
**** those guys

I don’t know,
I had all these texts
from random people when
I got out

like really random
like Sujin even texted me

I don’t know,
I’ll be in tomorrow,
I expect hugs
I miss hugs,
nobody’s hugged me all
week

ya’know they didn’t let me have music either?
yeah, I missed music,
yeah, this week really
******