i’m sorry
that he did this to you,
that it happened this way,
that he made you feel like the entire world,
that he bailed on you.
i’m sorry.
but there’s nothing you and i or anyone really, can do that’ll change what happened.
you have to come to terms with the fact that it did
that things will change
that it will hurt,
but also,
that you will be okay.
you will make it through
every monday morning waking up to coffee alone,
you will make it through
every tuesday night crying yourself to sleep,
you will make it through
every thursday sunset and every friday sunrise
you will make it through
every weekend and every week day,
without him.
you were born alone, and you will be able to live alone.
you are a stronger being than what his actions have made you believe,
your vulnerability is but temporary
the way you feel at this moment is not the way you will feel in a few months.
you are not the person you were in the fall,
and as the summer approaches,
you will no longer be the person you are now.
you are your own
you are not the person he’s made you to be,
his words will no longer strike a chord,
his eyes will no longer pierce your soul,
his laugh will no longer echo in your mind.
the cells in your skin will regenerate
and you will have a body that he hasn’t even touched
and it will be yours to keep and cherish
and with time and patience
you will be the wonderfully joyous person you were made out to be.
i’m sorry
that he did this to you,
that it happened this way,
that he made you feel like the entire world,
that he bailed on you.
i’m sorry.
but you are yours before you are anyone else’s