see to me god doesn't make any sense why would someone anyone higher being.. put us here to live a happy life.. or a bad one or a sad one or a psychotic, messed up one.. to just have us die.. like literally have no meaning on earth to have eternal happiness in some other dimensional plane.. why, would he forgive ALL sins.. how do you forgive someone for killing a child how do you forgive someone for molesting their own children how do you forgive someone for going against your teachings and throwing away everything you've strived to make people not do just to forgive them when the say "please god forgive me" how does a god let small children suffer cancer and sickness for no reason? how does god take the lives of the innocent with car crashes and drug abuse? free will? because he "needed" them where ever the **** "he" is?? maybe if he does exist i'll be smited for thinking this.. i'll be banned to the all eternal fire pit that is hell.. but how can he think that someone like me wouldn't think like this?? there is after all no proof of his existence.. the only proof i have that I exist is that i can see myself.. that's it.. i can't see him.. i can't feel him.. i don't know him.. prove me wrong..