sometimes, it takes but one blow to drain all the wind from your sails and sometimes, it takes a lot whether less or more, your sails are still racing down pulling the rest of you into a watery hell your hair pulls down, following the rivers flooding your face that have raced out of the gate of your closing eyelids trying to catch up with your spine that can't hold you upright from the ground there's a lot to see it's just a little less dim and darkened but rock bottom can be your greatest realization