I never want to be happy again:

If it means I'll see my friends
laugh and smile
and be loved and in love.

If it means I'll see my family
love and live
and be happy and together.

If it means I'll see all those around me
enjoy and thrive
and live and conquer.

I'd give up my life,
to see those around
thrive and be happy,
because I don't understand
how to be happy.

-r.y.s