The worst feeling in the world is not being loved, being a failure, an embarrassment, unwanted, a disappointment, and the Black Sheep. Sometimes I want to just run away and never look back. It ***** not being happy or feeling like you've over stayed your welcome in a house that's supposed to be full of love and care. Not being able to talk to nobody or being able to trust anyone hurts beyond a scar that is laying upon my skin that has it's own story. Yes, I do have the unbreakable love of a mother but it's only to a limit, meaning I can't talk about what I want to her or truly open up because it's not safe for neither one of us. I can't sit down and tell her about some, "Dude" that hurt me or I dare not say, "Mama, I met this dude that I'm digging or in love with". Simple words that bring me joy could stop the heart of others. I'd rather not have that on my conscience and so I keep my mouth sealed with the true unspoken love story that lives within me that breaks my heart everyday.