That thought
Knowing that you're not smart enough
Knowing that you're not good-looking enough
Knowing that you're not as awesome as people around you

You're in the bottom of the social ladder
You're in the bottom of heirarchy
But you continue with college and work
'That's how it's done,' they say
You know you can do more
You know you can live more
But rules, family, consequences
They stop you. Cold
Crushing your hopes and dreams
Making become like them
Sooner or later...you're one of them
Sooner or later..you'll crush the hopes and dreams of the next generation
Sooner or later...you're the demon that you hated once

Every step you take, every move you make
Comments. Opinions. Feedbacks.
Casually ignoring them...
LIES! They haunt you. Stalk you. Get ahold the better of you
Comments turn to regrets. Opinions turn to truth. Feedbacks turn to problems

You drink the wine of depression
Hoping that someone sober enough will help you
Drink with you
But you can't...
They don't deserve your pain
They don't deserve your sadness
They don't deserve YOU
So continue. Drinking it.
It fills you and in the end...
You want to quit college
You want to quit dreaming
You want to quit your ambitions
You want to quit life

Though you still hope for change...
You can change it but they stop you
It's a cycle
Desire change. Try to change. Change. They stop the change.
Rinse and repeat.