The prisoner inside my rib cage thumps against my chest and I wish I could let her leap out of my body; pound across fields and race through the landscapes like she wants to. But locked away, inside myself she will stay. She used to pound loudly like a boulder and I couldn't ignore her. She screamed for freedom. My lungs would collapse with pins and needles and my legs would betray my body like jello, unable to keep me standing. I couldn't figure out what she wanted from me. Just simply to be free from me? No. And It wasn't until recently that I realized what she wanted. She wanted to know she was loved. She wanted to feel free from the past. I knew she didn't want to hurt me. She didn't want to be a prisoner to herself anymore.
Yesterday I sat next to a boy on the swings; holding hands and laughing as we went higher and higher. His smile made her jump, and she danced inside my chest like a ballerina, and she was happy. She was in love. And she knew it from the way she leaped across my chest as if it were a stage.