You tracked it down
          Watched the water go light pink
Watched the light go in and out
     You’ve been shaded
You dragged it a mile down the river
               With your bare
                                          Hands
The sun left and you saw
The moon
            Shoot up just for you
With its drugged-up glow

You should have done this long ago
            Screamed and smeared
Danced with guts still warm

Elbow deep in the heart of it.

You think about getting an apple
                           For the mouth
But that’s been done so many times
                           It wouldn’t mean anything
Your stomach turns
       Hunger you guess

You have to bleed it dry
                Just to eat

It beats cleaning dead bugs
              Out of the sink
Its beats loneliness
It beats until the heart’s left out of this and the rest of it

There won’t be any leftovers
             No flowers
No ceremony
It’s not that type of ending

Your hands are stained for days
Your thoughts too

Keep waiting for your pulse and things to quiet down

Sure, it’s comforting
Sure, it’s been like thing forever
But you’ve thrown away so much of it

You could have kept some of the insides
But you were afraid
-scared shitless-
you wouldn’t know
what to do with it.