You tracked it down
Watched the water go light pink
Watched the light go in and out
You’ve been shaded
You dragged it a mile down the river
With your bare
Hands
The sun left and you saw
The moon
Shoot up just for you
With its drugged-up glow
You should have done this long ago
Screamed and smeared
Danced with guts still warm
Elbow deep in the heart of it.
You think about getting an apple
For the mouth
But that’s been done so many times
It wouldn’t mean anything
Your stomach turns
Hunger you guess
You have to bleed it dry
Just to eat
It beats cleaning dead bugs
Out of the sink
Its beats loneliness
It beats until the heart’s left out of this and the rest of it
There won’t be any leftovers
No flowers
No ceremony
It’s not that type of ending
Your hands are stained for days
Your thoughts too
Keep waiting for your pulse and things to quiet down
Sure, it’s comforting
Sure, it’s been like thing forever
But you’ve thrown away so much of it
You could have kept some of the insides
But you were afraid
-scared shitless-
you wouldn’t know
what to do with it.