I don't know what to say. I thought of you every day but it took four years for you to talk your way but only a minute to walk away. You truly were my first real love. I thought we would be the high school sweethearts that we wished we'd be. Everything that you said just now. I believe it. It was your fault you left.. I tried so hard to keep you but it just wasn't worth it. I became more and more depressed.... And after you all I was to a man was somebody to hit and sleep with. I lost my virginity to an abusive boyfriend.. Hell his name was even Justin. it made me cold and bitter with no trust. I believed that I wasn't good enough for you or anybody. And I still feel that way. What am I to do. If you told me four years ago.. It would mean more. You don't have to know your reason for leaving it was me that was depressed and having seizures who would want to be around that.... My heart sunk.. So much reading what you wrote. I lost my old account log in so I made another just to talk to you about it. I never forgot any part of us. I still can't forget and I never want to.. I loved you and I still do. I always will and after 2 years with my boyfriend living in my house.. I still don't want to let you go.. I never wanted to let you go. But it was what made you happy..