to forget everything
bad that’s
happened is
a fool’s errand

I am not a fool
but I am an idiot

I bite off more than I chew,
spit it out,
and take another
gigantic
gulp

my head hurts
my body hurts
my mind hurts

with all the mistakes
and obviously bad
decisions

I am not discouraged

I am living
not dying
(I hope)

living,
not dying,
for the
moment

living, not dying,
with music in my
ears and songs in
my heart, so I pick
up the pen and be-
gin