words come at me like light bouncing off the wall before hitting my face sinking in warm- they’re in the air but I can’t feel them can’t feel much can’t feel much but the coffee in my veins the joints that need to crack your words I can’t believe when you tell me those things and I’m not immune to them not immune to it quite yet- I hear but don’t feel anything but myself draining out being willed to you and I’m draining, and I can’t feel you like I should.