So I'm at this point
Where I don't know if I'm mad or not
Yes I've been upset
But should I even be at this place
Why is this taking so long?
I guess it's coming from lack of closure
The lingering feeling of never knowing for sure
How you feel
If you know how I felt
What 'we' was
If 'we' was real
I know I was a clingy *****
And I'm sorry
But you made your point
there's nothing that says "******* and your neediness"
Like telling me you were getting busy with school but changing that one preposition brings us closer precision to truthfulness
If we changed 'with' to 'at'
There would be no lie
No lie for you to hide behind
As much as it killed me
I got up
And I will try again
Not with you of course
That mistake isn't one I'm willing to make happen again
These are the thoughts that have clouded my mind these past few months
But as time passes
I grow stronger
Knowing I have lived without you much longer
than with
And I was okay then
And I'm okay now
And I'm going to be ok tomorrow