I liked you before
in 5th grade
you were tall as I remember
even now you still tower over me.

When I saw you again
the feelings started rushing in
Now a sixteen year old boy
Tall, Cute, Outgoing
Mr. Personality
as they called him
I never saw you again after that day.

I didn't expect to see you again
at a dinner that my sister set
I was shy and quiet
aloof and distracted
I couldn't talk to you
not because I liked you
but because words float in my head
that can't seem to make up sentences.

I tried talking to you at the wedding
but you seemed shy
or was I just assuming
and you just had nothing to say
3 feet apart from each other
suddenly
****** to link arms to walk down the aisle
and even to dance awkwardly
in front of the crowd
an awkward arm hug and a kiss on the cheek
I thought that was the last time.

It was a Sunday night
when I saw you again
built up my courage
and tore down my walls
talked to you for two hours
and that says it all
an awkward good bye ended it all.

I decided to text you and
say "Hi :)"
lead to a long conversation
about random things under the sky
it went right and left
left and right
then suddenly it just stopped
because I rejected your company or because you lost interest in me?

I saw you this Wednesday
and we talked about
our friends' love lives and what not
for sure it wasn't as awkward as I thought
our last words were
Good night.

Now that everything is said
that is how our story ends
I'd like for it to remain this way
even if deep inside
there is
this
little
voice
inside of
me
that is telling
you
"Stay."