my most prominent childhood memory is when i stood barefoot in the snow screaming for my mommy. it was hard to see her go.
i understand now why my father drinks beer day in and out because i know the feeling to want something nearer or close to your mouth.
i was ***** by the same person who molested me when i was four i was just sixteen, wasnt even over the first one same year mommy died, i turned into a *****.
i was in love with a hurricane and it ate me alive no use for Novocaine, i could hardly survive.
last hospitalization the sixth time i spent a week with intravenous medication for my soul to keep.
the first song i wrote was about my step father as he tried to push mommy down the stairs because she was drunk, and such a bother
i spent a week at my now passed grandparents' home with barbies, cookies, not one school day as young as i was, as little that i had known my life was not okay
i have been used about 36 times in different ways, but on different days and it makes me feel guilty sometimes i could have coped in better ways
i reach for you like nothing before no where near the bottle, the blade i dont want you like the smoke, the noose i almost wore it came apart, like we did, and so i hoped and prayed
this prose is ugly to the core my angel would hear me sing until she started to snore