i can’t seem to decide which is worse; missing someone who’s right in front of you, or missing someone you haven’t seen in years. missing someone who’s right in front of you is torture to the eyes & hands. the eyes can see exactly who it is they’re missing. they see their smile, the way they move, how they’re doing without you. the hands crave their touch & miss how it felt with their fingers interlocked in your own. they’re within reach, but not close enough for them to grasp. that’s what kills them. missing someone you haven’t seen in years is torture to the ears & feet. the ears have the last words they spoke to you stuck on repeat throughout the day, haunting them. sometimes they swear they heard them call out your name the way they used to. the feet want to walk to this person, & try to often, but get lost & can’t remember where home is anymore. both forms are torture to the heart. missing someone, no matter in what way, takes over your entire body until that's all you are anymore. that's all that's left of you.

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