get your talons out of me now
you should have dropped me long ago
let me breathe.
something i could never do around you
you dug into me
until i cried, screamed
your smile was wicked, full of regret
never was perfect
now that i am, it's still not enough
you find the smallest things
and rip them out of me
so i can see
jesus christ, do you ever stop?
these circles i keep running
will destroy me
you will be the death of me
i am most certain
satisfying you? there is no chance
your insides are full of ugly.
of shame. of guilty.
at least i tried. at least i lived.
you hid. you whine.
but never once
have you let me go.
the mistakes you made were so severe
you thought i might repeat

how could i?
how could i place blame on those i love?
how could i be so vicious?
how could i ever cut people apart until they were nothing?

if i were to give you a gift
it would be nothing but tears

the love you have for me
is a love full of broken words
i forgave you. but the memories burn my skull
like bright stars.

and your talons leave deep scars
that will stay on my skin
i will look at the white tissue
so ugly, so frail, and so beautiful.
everything you are.
gritting my teeth
i will fake the smile
i plastered on for you
you made me strong
but i am most certain

you will be the death of me