Vibrant colors fade to shades of dull gray.
Nothing seems the same, nothing is the same.
I’ve watched my life crumbled as I sit trapped in this cage, a cage I did create.
My life is and always will be filled with goodbyes, because people come and go no matter what they promise.
I've learned promises mean nothing.

I don’t mind change, in fact I welcome it;
But this change I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.
When everything you’ve ever known and loved changes,
Something inside you dies.
A sad shell of my former self, I drag my feet more and more with every step I take.
They always tell you to stand tall no matter what,
But what do you do when you feel as if you have no spine?
Some days getting out of bed and back again is all I can do.
The cold is too much to handle on these days and my mind is too loud with pride and false hope,
But my heart is broken and bent with the truth.
But I guess I only have myself to blame.
I allowed myself to drown in a fantasy,
When I should have been drowning in reality.
I only have myself to blame for losing control when the truth hurt the worst of all.