Don't bother
I'm ok.
Its a slippery slope you tread on
was your advice
or warning,
I cant decide.
Sit and drink a cup of tea with me
and I will tell you all there is to know
--if you so wish to know.
I grew up happy
sometimes, in pieces
I believe is the better term.
Between love and hurt
smiles, and endless tension.
I left and knew a freedom
I had not known before,
and reacquainted myself
with a mothers tender love.
I met with friends,
with petty enemies
but none so great
as you were (both) to me
and as I walk along that treaded path
I backtrack
to that time before,
when we shared love, and hate
and bitter memories.
Should I hate you now
or love you all the fiercer,
because....
it was you who taught me
to love intensely
and hate all the more incredibly.
You see--
I chuckle when I think
of this paradox we are in
like sugar I cant get enough
though its slowly killing me.
So you see (again)
I'm ok,
...sometimes
or perhaps...
in pieces is the right
word to say.