The things I feel can not go away.
All I feel is pain and suffering.
I am trying to make myself better in a way that we can be better one day.
It bothered me at first to not hear from you in awhile.
Now it's slowly going away as I understand why this all happened.
I have scared you to a point of possibly no return.
But I ask you this......
Would you give up on something you can always have?
Would you throw everything away like trash and not come back?
So many questions go through my head but it's not getting to me as bad as they did.
I'm starting to become better and not worry about things because I still have that hope.
Because I must still carry on with my life.
The hope that one day we can be together again.
I'm sorry for everything I have done.
Just please give me the chance of redemption.
To show you how I have changed.
I have been reading the book you gave me.
The book to get my mind off of things.
To read what I promised you I would do.
To make me better too in many ways.
Please if you are reading this. Please don't run away.
Please don't be scared of me.
Because I promise that one day you will understand.
One day I hope that we can be together again and go on with our lives.
I still think of you from time to time and I hope you do the same.
I am deeply missing you but I am waiting patiently for your return.
Thank you for changing my life in a good way and thank you for being there for me.
Now it's my turn to be there for you.
I am waiting patiently for you.
I made a promise to not give up and that's exactly what I'm doing.
Not giving up...............