I remember dad lying in a hospital bed breathing, but not much more than that. Hours were spent watching assistants come and go. Televisions droned through the hallway from other rooms, echoing through my head like an old movie playing at 4 a.m. after pulling a drunk. Rousing moans from dad punctuate the tedium. Sweat pools under my thighs from the high-quality, leatherette upholstered chairs that only one hundred thousand dollars of medical care could provide in a hospital room. Mornings brought the same parade of people pressing and probing dad. Occasional visits from the resident physician yielded timeless comments like, “we just want him to be comfortable,” and my personal favorite, “have you been here all night?” Stupid question. After all the “outpourings” of concern from friends and relatives (who I haven’t seen nor heard from since the dirt was shoveled over his casket), their visits can only be topped by the Sunday-after-church-crowd, who desired only to brand dad with their version of beliefs - God bless them. As they were leaving, I could most certainly detect the pride they felt in themselves for their courageous visit to the dying. And then came death. And here I am at 4 a.m. in the morning two years later, listening to a two-bit movie drone on the TV, wondering if dad listened to the Sunday-after-church-crowd.