You wrote songs for me,
You’d give everything for my heart.
A month went by,
We could no longer stand being apart.
You made the trip to see me,
And took my breath with your kiss.
We were so in love,
How the hell did it come to this?
You knew I was weak,
And couldn’t stand being alone.
Without you nothings right,
You were my only home.
I got scared when the night came,
I needed you so bad, and you weren’t there.
Sitting here tearing myself apart.
Screaming prayers but I knew you wouldn’t care.
You weren’t there and it broke my heart,
You promised me you’d always be.
You said you were going to get me out of here.
You said you still loved me but I couldn’t see.
I thought love was supposed to heal,
And for a while it did.
If this is love, how could it hurt so bad?
I told you to leave, you said “take care of yourself kid”.
And you’re probably right,
It wasn’t our time.
But how could I “take care”
When you weren’t mine?
It came down to the fact
Being with you hurt just as bad
As being without you.
I’m trying to forget everything we had.
Because the memories are what hurt the most,
We were kids high from love, some stupid kid.
I need to forget so I can live again,
But life won’t be the same, if we end up like this.
You made me say “forever”,
When you said “always”.
I still hope forever will happen,
I really thought it would end up that way.
Maybe I’ve been stupid,
Just some heartbroken fool.
A naïve idiot,
But now I cry at school.
I can’t get through a day,
Without wishing you were here.
Without feeling so lost I can’t breathe.
I know I fucked it up with my fear.
“Don’t beat yourself up”,
But I’m overcome with guilt.
Beating myself up is what I do best.
I thought I could stop it with the wall I built.
But you got in my veins,
I don’t know how it happened.
I was so careful,
But this is the end.
Isn’t it?
Or will you be back?
Please keep your promise,
I need it so bad.
I need stability,
But this love is fucking crazy.
Euphoria and pain,
But it’ll be okay, maybe?