Love is time.
And for a small time in long life i lay in bed with you.
After making wonderful love, i started having feelings again.
Feelings that i haven't known or imagined in a good time.
I know the only reason that happened is because i set into play some scenarios in my head.
I have to be more careful.
But it was kinda strong, the potential of it.
From this i knew i would be good.. it just wasn't necessary.
I don't recall or even remember if i knew if it was to explore or because it was sincere
but i liked it and it was true.
Just by holding you, at least in the moment,  i wanted to make you mine.
But i know different, and i know that you aren't mine.
It can't happen.
My mind does not agree, i use my head, and i don't care about my feelings because,
emotions are suicidal.
I don't like just to like.
.. You will never know that i, almost loved you.
Don't get it wrong. It's not for any other reason.. I really don't want you to know.
And i wouldn't want us to happen.
If that small moment lasted forever, my love would have been.
It's important though, to know that this will most likely never happen again.
That means you were one girl that had my love for one small moment.
No more will come.. there are specific reasons.
I was ready to give it all.
That love or almost love i had for you still exists somewhere in that air. In that same moment.
That forever stuck time.
I was ready to lose it all.
Even though i knew it wouldn't happen like i already explained before, i felt like i wanted nothing else but to stay with you. And it made me want you more.
Our bodies felt so warm and yours great while holding it tight against mine.
One moment is stronger than can be imagined.
There was something selfish about the air we shared; it was only for us.
Not to mention how healthy it was; it was truly robust.

  I love you in that moment, but you will never know.