I will be running around my room
Worrying, and frantically trying to get ready
Because I will need to be perfect.
I will be wearing red,
because Seventeen magazine will say that
its the color that guys like the most on a girl.
I will put on lip gloss,
because mama will say that lipstick, is too trashy,
while lip gloss speaks innocent, yet seductive.
I will stare in the mirror forever and debate:
hoop earrings? or danglies?
I will finally decide on my zipper earrings; danglies.
Only because they will show my quirky side,
and they won't give the impression of trying too hard,
like my big zebra stripe hoops could.
I will hide my 3-inch heels just partially
under the cuffs of my dark blue jeans.
Looking at the clock will get me nervous,
so I will try to calm myself down by focusing on
applying that perfect swipe of eyeliner...
And all too suddenly,
There will be a beep from the street outside,
and I will look out the window from the safety of my bedroom
to see him in his pick-up, waiting.
Daddy will say cautiously,
that a boy with more character
would come to the door.
But I won't be listening.
I'll be replaying my mantra in my head,
"He's different, he'll be special."
I will have convinced myself
that my parents will see the good in him...
And I will be out the door,
And on my way to his car,
And I'll trip.
And he'll laugh...
And I'll look back at my parents in the doorway,
one last time,
before turning once more and getting into the car...
And months later,
I'll look back on that moment and think,
That right then and there,
From the very beginning,
I should've known.