they say i'm a romantic at heart
falling head over heels to the point where
i don't so much need a shoulder to lean on
as i need someone to carry me around like you're piggy backing me for eternity, stay up with me all night
dry my eyes
make sure the scissors are put away and so is everything else that reeks of weakness
walk with me here and there because you know i can't stand to be alone
keep talking so that i don't even have the chance to hear myself think
can't get too wrapped up in my own head
you know what happened last time.

this is completely wrong,
yet you know me no other way, missing all of the bones i break and smiles that i don't fake,
the best friends that always catch me
the brothers that abandoned me
but i still call them on their birthdays
the confidence that gets me the enemies that i let break me
the cracked knuckles and
ink smudges in the strangest places
when i'm back in my element
i am tall
at my best i can jump four feet high
put a smile on your face
and
cookies never get burnt.

they say that i'm a romantic at heart
i say
they wish i was that selfish.