i took control
i made you wait
i pushed you away
i played your game
i
alone
had the power
or so i thought
my mind
foolish mind
promised me the world
and here i stand
in bitter darkness
wading in a
salty sea
of regret
why
listen to myself
why
insist on confidence
why
pretend to be
why not
just follow
why not
close my mouth
why not
simply exist
for you
to build me up
every day
to knock me down
every day
repeat
repeat
regret
i am sorry
for trying
for begging
for avoiding
for screaming
for everything
for apologizing
for growing stronger
for what i may do tomorrow
for allowing myself to live this way