Is there one word to describe several tumultuous emotions? How can one feel broken, defeated and relived all at once? Is there one word to describe that I am a fool over and over again but I refuse to stop loving & making amends? I will be free, I will be open and show myself clear. At least until someone hurts me bad enough to change my mind and put me in fear. but it's not you , you didn't defeat me. I refuse to be bitter, it was a grand adventure I'll treasure forever.