I once was young minded, vulnerable with wide tooth grins and fluttering words, binding soft skin with liquid metals - like gallium, clustering in my ribbed fingertips and letting love level in my lips. I turned old the day I watched rough bodies portraying the new style of *** on a vhs tape, and he gave me a shaking milkshake to turn off my developing voicebox.
I always wore this barbie nightgown that had tears from the nights before, but that's ancient dust that folks flip past in encyclopedias. as he knelt down to tie my veins together in little bows, I untied after each loop was set in my bones. his acidic fingers braced my eight year old metal frame, so I broke the nuts and bolts since I wanted to see if he was a part of the human race, I wanted to see if he could bleed iron-richness that kept myself breathing.
Chapter II
he was beautiful. his philosophy branched in segments and he tasted of earthy tones, but sometimes he couldn't smile easy and I felt his love only in acts of passion.
The football game stuttered in pure vertigo, as if my body was still positioned in missionary. he held me in concern, his arms laced as protection from myself. as a survivor, his words felt like whiplash or lagging from too much flying in the high altitude. I needed to forget, float, forgive and begin the process over again. I would never see the shades of love from anyone other than from him, his words used to brand me.
Chapter III
I drank too much. I wished on meteorites, lead-filled, hoping they wouldn't fall on the tent. my luck was never strong enough. I felt as if a wildfire was singeing my dysfunctional limbs. I wanted him off. now. and my tongue was made of parchment paper. crisped.
I woke up ten after nine. my body repulsed me, throwing up the last of poisonous alcohol I left stranded the night before. I devoted that I will never sleep in a tent again.
Chapter IV
I am finally free. I still have energy in these old bones, and I want to put them to good use. so I'll walk for centuries to find truth and trust. I use my voice to tell myself I am more profound than the surface film those insignificants swept on my skin. I found my voice again.