Why can't you just love me.
Your very own creation.
I need you, whether you think so or not.
Just love me.
That's all I want.
Be kind, with your words with it all.
Please come up for air because you're dragging me so far down with you.
I want to make you happy but I don't know what you want from me.
Please come back mom.
I'm right here waiting for you.
Get better.
Just love me.
Do I even have a mom anymore.
My eyes are stained for you.
My chest suffocates for you.
My heart needing you.
Dear God please heal her.
Mentally, Physically.
Take her out of her labyrinth of hopelessness.
I'm begging you Lord.
Yearnings into prayers.
I Love you.
I love you so much.
I'm so far away because I can't bear the pain I brought upon you four yearlings ago.
It's not my fault.
But I need to fix you.
I feel like I need to save you.
Jesus please save her once and for all.
You weren't bonded forever.
Lord please unbound her.
I can't be happy until she is free.
Free from her mind.
God I can't watch it anymore.
She's so hurt.
Dying from the inside out.
Outside in.
I hate that her happiness has any correlation with mine.
I yearn for her love so bad.
The love of a mother.
I don't have it anymore.
These tear stained pages show that.
There is no bond like a mother and daughters.
I love you mommy.
To the Moon and back.