I watch as you walk around school.
I watch as you smile at people.

Closing my eyes.
I fantasize.

You come straight to me.
You smile at me.
hug me.
kiss me.
love me.

I open my eyes and sigh.

You own my heart lover boy.

When will you let me own yours?

*
Your eyes are surveying the room.
Look at me
Your attention is caught by your friend.
pay attention to me

You laugh at him and continue to look around our class.

My heart thumps hard.
My blood feels like a freeway.
My head is turning.

Believe it or not.
He's dazzling me.
And he doesn't even know
it.

Eyes clash with mine.

It's
his
eyes.

Turn away.
Turn away.

I can't.

Hot.
The class turned
1000 degrees hotter.

He smiles.

I think
I stopped
breathing.

Run.
Run.
Run.
***
I'm grounded for ditching school.
I'm sick.
and it's Saturday.

Cough.
Cough.
Gag.

There's knocking.
Knock.
Knock.

No ones home except me.
Can someone tell me,
why me?

This can't be.
It's him.

He shoves a book in my hand.
It's my math book.
I look up.

He smiles at me.

I think i fainted.

How pathetic am I?