In a picture of me at my parents’ house I am cradling my rib and it looks bruised and boyish and apartment-like. In another: I am sitting on kneecaps, praying to the first boy I see, a boy with simple body, body like pinecone. When I was younger I listened to radio stations with a snake in my lap. Looked out windows at tops of buildings. Watched the tree branches falling onto concrete ground when it stormed, my legs from top to bottom naked like smoke. Cigarette smoke in my mouth but I never inhaled. My father and I were the same in that we didn’t have lungs and both liked alcohol. Every Saturday him taking me out and us drinking sake and my stomach churning like a bathroom sink. My face like large sky always changing color, always blushing. The first boy I kissed smelled like french fries and in his mouth I licked heavy broken heart. The first boy I kissed always wore white t-shirts so that whenever you saw him you could see when it rained. Kissing him my stomach turned upside down like a weighted storm. He touched my ribs and my stomach even when I cried. Parents are a lot like a childhood boy. Parents and boy all standing on my childhood porch. My childhood porch looks like a giant rib, or squid in the sky. The first time I smoked I thought I saw a squid or whale in the sky.