Jan 2015
Hey so today I felt like writing about you Stella, I hope you don't get angry at the honesty that's in this "thing" cant really call it a "poem" xD**
So the day I met you I was the happiest person in the world, you were the first person that actually noticed me and gave me any attention at all, and the fact that you were the one that started talking to me first? Oh God I was so excited! I remember that day like it was yesterday, you said I had the same smile as one of your friends, then I asked "Is that good or bad" then you replied "best smile evah!" That was the first compliment anyone has ever gave me, I started appreciating my smile more and more after that comment from you, also made me more confident about my looks, thank you! :) You were like one of the first girls I have ever talked to, first girl I talked to after my break up (...) so I immediately got this thing In my head about how much I miss talking to a girl or just talking to anyone in general, I was desperate to talk to you every day, I saw that you a little bit annoyed about it after some time because I was just jealous whenever you talked to someone else but not me, especially when you were on TC and you were with that "friend" Oh God to be honest I always hid your web cam so I don't get mad and start messaging you stuff **** yes that sounds crazy but that's how I am anyways, After the first day of talking to you I started getting really attached to you and I was scared to express my feelings to you because I was worried that you would call me some kind of ****** or something, but after I finally got "emo" enough to express everything to you, you took it kinda as a joke but It turned out good at the end because we still remained good friends which I didn't expect, You didn't say it straight up but I knew that I obviously got rejected but It didn't feel bad at all because I was flattered having a friend like you; Gorgeous, Smart, can make me laugh, and really nice to talk to, I thought you were perfect. I still think the same but you're a human after all. Don't take this as an insult its just you have your own life, you have friends that you see every day, you have your own problems and you don't care that much about the people on the internet because they don't matter in your life that much which I understand, I got to understand that more when I went to work and actually started talking to people. But I still think meeting you in real life would be the best thing that would ever happen to me and I hope it'll happen one day, I care about you and you really matter to me because every time you smile I smile, everytime you're sad I get sad and I pray that you get better as soon as possible but it doesn't seem to work so I'm sorry :/. I'm trying to talk to you every day, I'm dreaming about you sometimes and I still think about you every day, not as a girl of my dreams but as my First Real Friend :)
So the day I met you I was the happiest person in the world, you were the first person that actually noticed me and gave me any attention at all, and the fact that you were the one that started talking to me first? Oh God I was so excited! I remember that day like it was yesterday, you said I had the same smile as one of your friends, then I asked "Is that good or bad" then you replied "best smile evah!" That was the first compliment anyone has ever gave me, I started appreciating my smile more and more after that comment from you, also made me more confident about my looks, thank you! :) You were like one of the first girls I have ever talked to, first girl I talked to after my break up (...) so I immediately got this thing In my head about how much I miss talking to a girl or just talking to anyone in general, I was desperate to talk to you every day, I saw that you a little bit annoyed about it after some time because I was just jealous whenever you talked to someone else but not me, especially when you were on TC and you were with that "friend" Oh God to be honest I always hid your web cam so I don't get mad and start messaging you stuff **** yes that sounds crazy but that's how I am anyways, After the first day of talking to you I started getting really attached to you and I was scared to express my feelings to you because I was worried that you would call me some kind of ****** or something, but after I finally got "emo" enough to express everything to you, you took it kinda as a joke but It turned out good at the end because we still remained good friends which I didn't expect, You didn't say it straight up but I knew that I obviously got rejected but It didn't feel bad at all because I was flattered having a friend like you; Gorgeous, Smart, can make me laugh, and really nice to talk to, I thought you were perfect. I still think the same but you're a human after all. Don't take this as an insult its just you have your own life, you have friends that you see every day, you have your own problems and you don't care that much about the people on the internet because they don't matter in your life that much which I understand, I got to understand that more when I went to work and actually started talking to people. But I still think meeting you in real life would be the best thing that would ever happen to me and I hope it'll happen one day, I care about you and you really matter to me because every time you smile I smile, everytime you're sad I get sad and I pray that you get better as soon as possible but it doesn't seem to work so I'm sorry :/. I'm trying to talk to you every day, I'm dreaming about you sometimes and I still think about you every day, not as a girl of my dreams but as my First Real Friend :)
