It’s so easy to say yes.
It’s all I want to say. I want to pretend again. I want to play.

I want to look inside the skin of a young man and clutch his yesterdays and hold it in my palms and breathe them free. I want his anger and hurt to leave with the spirit of a young girls touch. So the pain will come and ache will go. Dull and stinging all the same. Sharp as sun, bright as blonde. Let it go.

My angry heart and shouting soul
Is ice up on the mountain snow

Happy never meant for me to see
The end of day I made for me  

And I have to be
Inside a Man that can’t break free.

I will scrape my cup on bars in cage
and yell to guards who can’t hear me,
I’ll watch you from the other side
And rage and rage
Until I’m free
Until I’m free.

I am broken and bent and unspoken stillness grips like a steering wheel. I can’t tell what’s right what’s wrong what’s high what’s low. I can’t tell you what I want. I can’t tell you when and if it’s ok. I don’t know. I like you and I hate me. I want to press against you and I want to push you away. I have never been here before, yet it seems like I have always been here.

I want you to go away and never call my name again

I want you on your back with your boots on my shoulders. I want to hear you moan. I push and push and push and push and push………..

I want you to go away and never call my name again

I want you on your back with your boots on my shoulders. I want to hear you moan. I push and push and push and push and push………..