The pain will never flee
no matter where I go
it is always with me

Hide it in shadow
as I engrave another smile upon my face

Flirting with the idea of letting go
I drown my hopes behind a glaring screen
Hoping for change
almost as much as I loath it

Shunning the thought
and hiding within my comforts

It seems the past
will always be part of the future
An eternal bond
altering every decision

But to let the fear overwhelm oneself
would be most foolish
and dangerous

The answer is simple
to hide the source
of misery
as deeply as possible

To become so close to forgetting
that you feel long moments of happiness

But remember those mistakes made
and make them no more
and even in the presence of compassion
it is just hidden from sight

Knowing I can never escape
in itself is painful

but with you
the pain doesn't hurt as much