These are worries: bad realizations and unfocussed eyes. These too: Feeling something raw, and also vague panics— when everything beneath drops far below and leaves no breath at all.
When the breathing returns heavy in your ear and five nails in a circle on your back remind you just how real you could be, it’s easy to fret (unwaveringly) someone is walking through something beautiful; nature maybe, complaining about bad directions.